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The Faces of Borderline Personality Disorder: A Misunderstood and Crippling Disorder

The Faces of Borderline Personality Disorder: A Misunderstood and Crippling Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder

Borderline Personality Disorder

My dearest friend struggles with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and this article is a testament to her strength and determination to win the fight over her borderline personality disorder. She is a role model for many, and although not having had the ‘easiest’ life shall we say, if I could bottle her tenacity and bravery I would be a multimillionaire just on this alone. In short, whoever struggles with this condition or if you know of someone who struggles with BPD-not all is lost! You can achieve the life you want. But I assure you that this is no easy process. It is one that needs emotional and cognitive investment from which anything can be achieved.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) according to the DSMIV (Diagnostic tool to diagnose mental disorders) is characterized by a pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships and self-image. It is characteristic of marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood and presents in a variety of contexts. I have been working with sufferers of BPD since the beginning of my career and it always fascinates me how many therapists I come across who stay well clear of dealing with BPD. Now don’t take me wrong, in my experience BPD is one of the most difficult of disorders within the personality disordered spectrum to treat, because once it has developed (and we don’t know the primary causes) it becomes engrained in the individual usually from a very early age and becomes further reconditioned for many years where it feels near impossible to get rid of the symptoms.

I have always viewed BPD as a “relational disorder” rather than following the specific criteria in diagnostic manuals. Many people don’t realize that in therapy the therapeutic relationship is key to assisting the individual through any difficult process and is vital in the overall effectiveness of the therapy. Think about it this way… if you didn’t like someone you wouldn’t want to open up to them right? The same applies to the therapeutic relationship. However, like any relationship there will always be issues that arise and these need to be ironed out with the therapist. By doing so a greater understanding of BPD can be achieved which is a transferable quality to other relationships.

Here is a list of some of the pervasive difficulties that someone with BPD may experience. The reason for which is to highlight the lived experience of such an individual to explain the severity of what one goes through-largely without assistance, unless privately funded.

There are extreme and frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Individuals with BPD have an acute fear of abandonment-this can develop in various forms, such as fear of rejection, not being good enough, real abandonment, and even playing the potential abandonment out in ones head.

Having Borderline Personality Disorder Can be Extremely Isolating

Having Borderline Personality Disorder Can be Extremely Isolating

There is a historic pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation-this suggests that one second you may be idealized and the next second you may be rejected and devalued, and often made to feel devalued. This process of devaluation is often a good indicator of how devastated the BPD sufferer is on an emotional level and is a very extreme way of illustrating what it feels like to be them. Think about this as a means for the BPD sufferer to transfer their feelings onto you so you can get a glimpse of their suffering.

A debilitating experience in itself is developing an identity disturbance, such as the significant and persistent unstable self-image or sense of self. This forms a core to BPD, in that there is a drastic instability in self-image or sense of self that this may come across as being a severe experience of insecurity or sensitivity. However on an internal level, there is a sense of constant self-denigration and disgust with the self, where the person may desperately need reassurance but yet be suspicious of its deliverer.

According to diagnostic methods, impulsivity is noted in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g. spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). These experiences need to be seen as brief methods of self-soothing for the individual, however to the outsider, this is seen as erratic behavior which can be criticized rendering the BPD sufferer even more ashamed as a result.

In many cases of BPD, there is recurrent suicidal behavior, ideation, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior. The level of emotional pain and turmoil experienced is often transferred to such feelings, behaviors and thought processes as there is a desperation for some sense of soothing. Even the thought of suicide may be soothing but not necessarily wanting to be achieved ‘forever’, but often feeling that there is no other way out.

Emotional instability becomes a cornerstone to BPD; this is due to a significant reactivity of mood (i.e., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days). The emotional element of BPD is often a primary factor that may trigger various episodes and cause a great deal of distress for the individual. A tool I often use is to draw up a mood chart, and do this for a minimum of two months to see the relevant patterns within ones mood. By doing this, there is a preemptive response to mood, which may help in remaining one step ahead at all times.

Chronic feelings of emptiness shroud BPD. This is rooted in childhood development and the lack of a secure base to understand the process of self-soothing and emotional connectedness. Words like love, containments, happiness and emotional connectedness may all seem far removed from the mind of the individual with BPD. Largely this is because they do not trust that the person delivering these actions and words are genuine. This is one aspect within the therapeutic relationship that is addressed immediately and it is vital to look at the sabotages that the individual will create out of being uncomfortable when they experience the above wonderful emotions.

Inappropriate intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights). Anger, has become a particularly anti-social method of expressing oneself in society. Unfortunately, societal reactions are often focused on the individuals with “anger problems” seeking out assistance, whereas I believe that general society should also learn how to deal with anger and assisting the individual in diffusing the experience.

Anger provides us insight into the depth of pain an individual is experiencing at the point of eruption. The second we can identify with the depth of pain, within ourselves we are able to rationalize and feel less burdened by the person experiencing the angry outburst. In these situations, our fight or flight response is triggered and we tend to either react by mirroring the angry response, or running away from the acute confrontation. Learn to endure someone who displays angry outbursts and no doubt they will appreciate your attempts at doing so.

Transient, stress related paranoid thoughts or severe dissociative symptoms. Unfortunately, due to the high level of sensitivity the BPD sufferer experiences, these dissociative symptoms may at many times cause the individual to cut off from the extreme emotional pain and resemble someone that has “switched off” the ignition and may become unaware of what is happening in their body and mind. This is why it is vital that Mindfulness practice is used as often as possible to maintain a centeredness and presentness.

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Causes of BPD:

The irony is that although we have a diagnostic tool to diagnose someone with BPD, there is no substantial research into what causes BPD. There are a number of theories about what the causes may be, however many professionals subscribe to the biopsychosocial model of causation, in which they see the causes of BPD to be closely tied to biological, genetic, and social factors, and psychological factors. This suggests that there is no direct cause from any of the above mentioned factors, instead it is a complex and intertwined amalgam of all three factors.

BPD in my experience has often been misdiagnosed. I have had patients I’ve worked with arriving with a diagnosis of schizophrenia, Bipolar disorder all the way through to being palmed off as though nothing was wrong. I wont get started on the shoddiness of some therapeutic services turning people away with BPD!! That’s for another time!

Nonetheless, I have found that the greatest difficulty for people with BPD to overcome is creating a new relationship with themselves, where they do not sabotage every new good thing that comes into their lives because there is a deep-set core belief that they don’t deserve anything good in their lives.

This core belief can change, but what I’ve noticed is that there is a constant sense of not being good enough and fearing failure, and because they have been in this cycle of constant destruction, pain and heartache grow to become common sense and in a strange way a safety net of certainty. Many of us develop such strategies of coping with the uncertainty of life, but for people with BPD, uncertainty is filled with terror and panic and such high levels of anxiety that they can either crash into periods of depression or severe anxiety and panic attacks.

A key ingredient to overcoming BPD is by firstly establishing a good relationship with a therapist. My advice is to find someone who fits the way you are and get a good feel for them. They need to be able to contain you enough in any phase or mood you find yourself in.

This is the responsibility of your therapist to work through this process with you and to help you overcome feelings and fears of abandonment.

I have had the privilege of working with some of the severest forms of BPD and observe the immense changes that a person goes through when they want to change their behavior and thinking. This is very much possible even though many professionals believe that if you have BPD there is no way of maintaining a sense of control and live a full and enriching life.

Statements like that go against everything I believe in, and if I had to accept that as gospel then that is like suggesting that some headaches can be treated whereas others cannot. At the end of the day it is a headache and yes some headaches can be worse than others, but there is always a way to get to the root of the problem and address core beliefs and ways or relating and functioning.

I believe that not only is BPD difficult for others to relate to, but first and foremost, it is incredibly difficult for the person diagnosed with BPD to fully accept that this is what is wrong with them. There is initially a phase of fighting against this diagnosis, especially if it has been adequately diagnosed and not misdiagnosed, as is the case in many other situations.

In saying this, that is why I feel it vital to find someone who has expertise in dealing with BPD and who is strong enough to contain ruptures and outbursts so that a solid structure can be achieved and maintained.

Besides being terrified of the actual BPD diagnosis, I can only imagine how terrifying it must be to work with a professional who feels incapable of ‘holding’ the person while they’re going through such emotional and cognitive turmoil. Please bear in mind that the therapist you will be working with is still a human being and is one who has flaws, so it is essential to work through any ruptures that may occur within the therapeutic relationship.

Learning to be authentic with ones feelings and thinking is a vital combination in adapting oneself to having BPD and face up to the many faces it can have present.

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Mindfulness:

Mindfulness has been a philosophy or mode of living life that has come about during the beginning of the 21st century in western minds, and is derived from Zen Buddhism and often found in a number of eastern philosophies which date back centuries.

The practice is simple. By allowing thoughts to come into one’s mind, not judging them, and allowing them to leave as quickly as they came in. However, it is still a practice, and a practice means PRACTICE! The only way this process can become beneficial for us is to embrace the teachings and techniques and apply them on a daily basis. I always speak about conditioning the mind in the same fashion as we do our muscles, and if we don’t allow these new ways to become second nature to us, we eventually become complacent and fall back into old ways of being.

There are a number of very helpful mindfulness practices that are available, however what I instruct anyone attempting at taking up mindfulness is find a technique that is suitable and helpful to you-don’t follow every guru that has “the cure it all solution”, instead build on your own philosophy in life and test out many. Additional approaches which are especially helpful are: Schema therapy, Acceptance and commitment therapy, Existential therapy.

Cognitive analytic therapy:

Cognitive Analytic Therapy (CAT) was first developed by Anthony Rile, and in my opinion is one of the most collaborative and embracing therapy models available to us. Founded on the given that everything in life has a beginning, middle and end, the structure of the therapy follows the same process. At the beginning a reformulation letter is written to the patient so that both therapist and patient are on the same path and know exactly what problem they are addressing in the therapy. What follows is the bulk or middle of therapy where much of the work is done, ultimately leading to the end of therapy where a goodbye letter is written covering all the work that has been completed. This is essential for the patient to take something away with them so that if they are ever in crises they can go back to the goodbye letter and realize how much they have actually managed to complete and change in their lives.

CAT was primarily designed to deal with BPD and its challenges and besides there being a solid framework in which to practice it, it is very forgiving and collaborative with many other approaches.

A technique I use often and this can apply to anyone wanting to observe themselves a bit more closely is using a mood graph. The intention is noting twice a day (morning and evening) your mood and rating it (1-10) and identifying the precipitating event contributing to the mood. The intention of which is to be constantly checking in with yourself so that you are actively aware of your internal state. This is often difficult for BPD sufferers, in that they often dissociate (almost like a day dream like state and feel detached from themselves) and are not conscious of their emotional and cognitive state.

Within BPD, there is often resentment towards a family member or someone close to them. In psychotherapy we call it the narcissistic wound in the individual. This is an emotional wound so painful that it is near impossible to reach the person on an emotional level, because when things become too painful the BPD sufferer will most often resort to deviating or avoiding the cause of emotional pain. In order for a beneficial relationship to develop for the patient there needs to be a close connection with explicit boundaries and clear expectations of ones needs and desires-this should be achieved and maintained on both

Ultimately, BPD is nothing to sneeze at, and it is an unfortunate state of affairs in the NHS at the moment that there is not adequate support for individuals struggling with this condition. I can only hope that the information provided allows its readers some insight into Borderline Personality Disorder and how it can be addressed from both positions.

 

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Individual Therapy London

Individual therapy at Harley Street Psychology is founded on three models of therapy: Existential/Phenomenological Therapy, Cognitive Behavioural Therapy or better known as CBT, and Cognitive Analytic Therapy (CAT).

The reason why these approaches have been chosen as the core foundation of Harley Street Psychology in providing Individual therapy in London is because of the unique and complimentary fit that the approaches have with each other and equally the successful track record that each approach has individually.

Finding Individual Therapy in London can be a daunting process as there are a number of very good therapists out there who offer outstanding services—however how do you choose the right Individual Therapy for you?

You need to ask yourself what kind of approach would be best suitable for you, from the point of view that Individual Therapy works on a one-to-one basis with you and a therapist. The key too much success in individual therapy is allowing oneself to learn to be truly intimate with the information that is revealed not only with yourself in a session but also in the disclosure to your therapist. Many of us are terrified of experiencing truly intimate relationships with others and withhold much information and most of the time who we truly are… so in relationships we hide ourselves from people that are supposed to mean something to us.

This is not the case in individual therapy, in that; the key is creating a new type of relationship with yourself, your environment and with others (and in this case, your therapist). We often fail to remember that life is all about relating and how we choose to relate in various contexts. This becomes almost automatic for us, where we change unconsciously in the various contexts and interactions we might have day to day.

This is not the case with individual therapy—you will become very conscious of “how you are” with another human being and understand the dynamics involved in creating a non-judgmental and truly caring relationship that is solely for your benefit and no one else in the immediacy of the therapy room.

A common problem that arises in individual therapy is the “selfish” question… is it not selfish of me if I indulge in therapy? I can’t tell you how many times this question has come up in a session, and the ultimate understanding is that this life is about you and how you choose to live it, so an hour a week is far from selfish in any way. What is essential to the process of individual therapy is that you are authentic enough with yourself and your therapist in understanding the full range of emotions, traps, snags and dilemmas you may face.

By doing so, individual therapy provides you with a platform to challenge any difficulty and learn how you function in relation to any of these problems without feeling as though you have no alternate method of coping.